We are MORE!

I want to dictate the meaning behind why we are MORE through Christ through a friends advice to me in a time of such sorrow and deep numbness.

The picture to the right is one of my dearest and most cherished friends of mine, Kennedy Maddox. As some of you may already know, Kennedy died this last June. This was a week before I had to leave for Hawaii. Kenny was the bravest young man I have ever met and one of few most genuine, honest and direct people in my life. I loved him and our friendship will never be forgotten.

As I was mourning in those first few days a friend gave me some absolute amazing advice. She said, "Nothing hurts more like this young, senseless death. It makes me feel like life goes beyond this complete ache- like I have a greater responsibility in the face of tragedy to do more, be more, love more. You are more for having known Kenny and for having been his friend and shared his heart. You now have a greater responsibility to be happy, and be more truly yourself."After she said this I marinated on that idea that I have to do more, be more, love more. And that in fact I am MORE for getting to know such a beautiful human being. It all is so true in any circumstance.

My whole marination process with my grief and heavy heart for Kenny became even more true when I realized that I am actually more through Christ. God loves me! Died for me! My story, my testimony is only true and cherished because of my constant faith in God. Without His grace, mercy, love and comfort I would sulk in my transgressions and past. Throughout this time at YWAM God has shown me how much He is with me in the simplest of ways. I dont have to fall to the ground, wail out in crazy sounds, see visions or hear His audible voice. I just have to be patient and be in fervent faith and prayer while knowing He in fact loves me dearly and cherishes me as a daughter, a bride and a friend. God has always been my patient friend. It is through this friendship that I can call to Him when I am stuck in my sadness and sorrow with Kenny. He understands my pains and grieves with me, but He also smiles because I chose love.

Choose to love this week! Like my Mama always says, "Love always wins in the end."